This decision I've made is killing me. It hurts so bad to be without him, but I know I have to do this. I know that I'm never going to get anywhere in my life if I always have to rely on someone else. I have to establish within myself the fact that I WILL be okay on my own. I can take care of myself and be stable. I know it's going to be hard, but this is something I have to do.

Please just know that I love you.

Well....

Here's your update bitches.

I don't have much time b/c I goto school and work 2 jobs.

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 For the record, I would just like to say that I know I may be very stupid, and I know Brandon may be VERY stupid, but through it all, we still love eachother.

<3    02.20.04   <3

Started school today.

A lot of the old bitches that I hated are gone, but as you probably guessed, some new ones have come.

I dunno, maybe It's just me. Maybe I'm to short tempered.

But people just got on my MOTHA FUCKIN NERVES.

Anyways, get at me.

This is a game about concentration. A game about loyalty, about entrapment, about faith. This game is about friendship, passion, pleasure and many different emotions all at one time.
You start out feeling as if you have won already.
Wrong.
Youre losing. Sometimes faster, sometimes slower. It doesnt matter. But what does matter is that you're losing yourself. Your mind, your power,your body, your soul, your life.
To win the game is to be ultimately happy.
Winning is caused from submitting all of these things (mind, power,body, soul, life) to your lover. If love is found in return, you have won. Once you have accomplished the win, you musnt stop.

Or you lose.

Just sitting here writing,

In my composition book.

Me and you, together boo,

That's quit a proposition huh?

Yea, go ahead baby,

Call me country.

You and I both know,

Just how bad you want me.

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...FUCKING AMAZING...